As many of you know I consider myself a Christian, a work in progress Christian to be exact. I am light years from being perfect on the matter, but I try. Over the years I have been asked why I believe in what some refer to as illogical fantasy.‘Oh, you believe in some dude that lives in the clouds? A fantasy.’My answer to that is, ‘No, I do not believe in the Care Bears, I believe in God. The Care Bears live in clouds, Care-A Lot to be correct, God exists in the world as ongoing presence.'
I use to say that the world thrives on a logic that cannot happen without. A pattern to all life. Trees growing in the dessert; a death and birth occurring every moment of the day; the human body working on impossible impulses which are far from logical; ideas sprouting out of apparent nowhere.I like when it said that God must not be good if evil exists. Greatest gift is free will but also a great disability because we can choose either one thus turning something beautiful into something ugly. A gift into a plague.Why do people die young; some old and others never allowed to live? I have come to a thought on that. I do not believe that this life is it. I do not believe that when we die we cease to be. Everything goes black and silent is ridiculous to me. I believe the soul is immortal. Can’t be seen by X-ray but makes an individual unique in subtle ways. Special beyond the cover therefore can never be replaced.The shell can change but the real person is forever. I believe that is we believe/accept Jesus Christ (God) that we are forgiven for our imperfections (sin) thus we are accepted into heaven or if we reject God (and Christ) we forever in the dark, AKA Hell. Our choice not God’s. We are not machines we choose. Why do we die because, right or wrong, are time is limited here relatively speaking but on this plain. Living on either in comfort or in suffering in another place separated by time.God knows us and knows that this world is temporarily which means that in death we live. Makes it no easier to lose people that I can totally agree on that. I lost my dad over in 2018 which is still something I am dealing with. Somedays are easy and others not so easy. I know he is in a better place. I know he is with God and one day I will see him again.On the day he died, March 9th, 2018, I dropped my daughter off school early for Orchestra. Dropped by Einstein Bagel's, where my wife works. Had breakfast and saw a test from my sister. Dad had been in a hospice and he was struggling to breathe. Nothing could stop this now. I went home to take a nap since I worked nights.
I woke up hearing dad’s voice say, ‘Kurt’. I checked my phone and my wife, Kelly, sent me a message to call her. This was after I saw the group chat, 'Don't call him. I will tell him.'I knew what it meant. It meant dad was gone. 'Baby, I am so sorry. But he slipped away.'After I got off the phone with Kelly, I sat on the couch stunned. I wasn’t crying, that would come later. I looked out the window expecting the world to end now because a guy who I could never see not in this world had left this world. I just sat there but I was not alone. No, I am not referring to my two cats, Milo, and Lucy. I will not say I saw visions because I did not but I felt a presence.I could without any doubt tell you that Jesus Christ was sitting in my living room silent but there looking at me as if to say, ‘He made it home safe’, meaning that dad was now in Heaven. ‘I’m here when you are ready to talk’. I haven’t stopped talking to God since that day.I know we are worried about Co-Vid; the election; money and our jobs. I worry about those things too all the time. But what I am asking is please consider that God is real, because I believe he is. Consider that God is about mercy; justice; kindness; pity; love and forgiveness. Consider that we all have a immortal soul to us which has a purpose. God did not create us because he wanted slaves or that he was lonely. He was being kind so let’s be kind to each other and share with others ours words and talents.Let us look to be happy about at least one thing every day. And most of all lets us consider the source of our life all the good and bad. Let’s swallow our pride and just say, ‘Hi, God’, and see where that takes us.
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